Saturday, December 27, 2008

New Year, fresh start!

What a year its been. A lot has happened, and Im ready for a new one! I know God has a lot in store for me this year. I have felt broken and numb the last few weeks to God, but He got a hold of me tonight. Im excited for my youth group in 2009. Ready for a fresh start! Ready for God's will and His way!!

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

Check it out!

Just updated our youth website! Check it out, let me know what you think.

Friday, December 5, 2008

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Been a While....

Hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving! Mine was awesome, went to Tennessee for the week. Good time with family and friends.

I found out this week that my best friends nana past away. My heart goes out to them. I also have talked to a number of my students this week who are having a struggle with the walk in Christ. Family problems, depression, numb to God. My heart has been broken this week. I since a lot of hurt going on right now.

I just re-read Jenzense Franklin's book fasting, and I have realized that fasting can be the key to our breakthrough. While fasting we become closer to God than ever before. I challenged my students to fast for the New Year. Not because I want them to, but b/c they are tired of living there lives the same old way.

Theres only 21 days til Christmas!! Im laying in bed watching Home Alone!!! My favorite Christmas movie! It snowed all day today, and I was told we are getting 6 inches tonight.....(I hope)

off I go,



Friday, November 21, 2008


We are only 6 day's away from entering into my favorite time of the year. I have been thinking the last few weeks, about what the Lord has done for me. When I look back over my 23 years, there are a number of things that just stick out, that the Lord has done for me and then there are the "little things" he has done that sometimes we over look. Some of the "little things" Lord, thank you for wakening me up today, letting me take another breath, being able to walk, talk, see, hear. Having clothes to wear, a house to sleep in, food to eat, a loving family, friends. Thank you for a wonderful job, and a group of students that love you and have a passion for you.

I'm thankful for the my savior who died for me, so I could live. God never ceases to amaze me. There's even the things he keep me safe from that I don't even know about. I love the Lord with all my heart. I'm so blessed and thankful, that my savior loves me to call me His own!

Have a happy Thanksgiving everyone!



Wednesday, November 12, 2008


So I have been Youth Pastor at the Worship Center for a year this week! It's been a good year. More up's than downs! We have had growth. When I started we had under 10, and over the last year have climbed to 30! Praise God! I'm excited to see where God is going to take us this year!

When I moved into my office I painted it dark blue/purple, I liked it but it just was too dark for me so last night after prayer I decided to re paint my office! It took me till 5am, but I got it all done! 3 of the walls are Beige, and the main wall is purple! I love it. It looks professional, which is what I'am...professional....ha ha.

I really like change. I used to hate it, but live and learn.

Saturday, November 8, 2008


Last night was our youth lock-in. It was a lot of fun! We had 31 students! Most everyone stayed up till about 3am. Then we watched a movie and most were out!

Got home this morning about 8:45am, then slept till 3!! I'm so wore out, but it was worth it. Also got a surprise last night when my best friend Marc showed up at the church. They are visiting from Ohio. Should be a good day tomorrow.

Thursday, November 6, 2008

On my mind....

"For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways," declares the LORD. "As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts. (Isaiah 55:8-9)

Those 2 verses have ran through my mind like wild fire since June of this year. A lots has happened since June that just has not made since to me. Even now the last few weeks a friendship as been renewed, but I have those same feeling I had this summer. I know what I want, but what does God want? And I read Isaiah and know God is in control, and even tho I don't understand why we things happened the way they did, God does. I hope there is a future, but it's not up to me. As the song goes, "It's gonna be worth it all" Im just tired of feeling the way I do.


Sunday, November 2, 2008

Under the weather.....

It has been a horible 2 days.  Haven't been sick in a long time which is rare for me.  But It's kicking my butt now.  Lastnight could not fall asleep till about 4am, then work up at 7:3o, and was up pretty much till Sunday School time.  

Felt a bit better at church, but had a leader meeting I cut short b/c I was starting to feel it again.Went home and slept pretty much all afternoon.  Missed youth service, so you know I was sick b/c I never miss youth service.  But my leaders did a awesome job I heard.

I have the best leaders in the World. Thank God so much for them.

Ok rest time.


Friday, October 31, 2008

Election Time.....

Well we are only 4 days out from electing this Nations 44th President.  I believe this election is one of our most important, if not the most important since our 17th president Abe Lincoln.  One thing Im tired of is the media, and people bashing each other because of our political views.  I had a convo the other day with some friends, and the just of the convo. was if you vote Obama or democrat then you're not a christian.  In no way is this true at all.  What some people don't understand is that as an US American it's our privilege to vote for whoever we want.  It has nothing to do with us as Christians.  No where in the Bible do I read, vote republican or spend eternal life in hell.  It's just non since.  People have lost friends, and family members, because of this election, and them all fighting with each other.

Now in no way am I say Im voting Obama.  Any one who knows me knows my support lay's with John McCain and Sarah Palin.  I fell he is more qualified, and ready to be our Commander and Chef. Im just tired of my friends, who are voting for Obama of being ritaculed by McCain supporters, and telling them they are not a christian b/c of who they vote for.

Truth is God already knows who the next president is going to be till the day He comes back for His people.  If Obama is elected then it was His (God's) will.  If McCain is elected same thing God's will.  

Let's just keep praying for our country and remember the scripture in 2 Chronicles 7:14 "If my people, which are called by my name, shall humble themselves, and pray, and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways; then will I hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin, and will heal their land."

The United States of America NEEDS Jesus Christ so bad right now!  Will you pray for your country, or continue to fight among each other?



Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Catch up....

Man It has gotten cold fast. Yesterday it snowed a bit and tonight it is 32 out. brr. I guess winter will be here soon. Only 29 days till Thanksgiving, and 57 days till Christmas! I love this time of year.

So over the past few months I have had head aches, and could not figure out why. A friend told me he had the same thing so he went to the eye doctor, and found out he needed glasses. I had not had my eyes checked since grade school, but I had 20/20 vision then. I see I thought. Found out today I'm near-sited. I now have glasses, but the doctor said it would take care of my head aches. He said my eyes where just a bit off, but enough to cause my eyes to strain. So praise God I found out why my head hurt all the time.



Friday, October 24, 2008


I know God has someone for me. I also know it would be easier in my ministry to have someone. But God knows what he's doing and I know in time there will be someone there for me supporting me and "our" ministry.

I'll just keep praying for her.

God let your will be done in my life! Whoever you made for me I pray for her today.

Monday, October 20, 2008

Fall Retreat Recap

WOW....God never ceases to amaze me.

Im at such a loss for words right now. The past weekend was our fall retreat, going into it I knew God was going to do something good in the life's of our students. And He did.

Saturday night, I preached on commitment. I asked the students to be honest and write down the biggest things they struggle with. I then wrote them down on the white board and it really it home when we all looked at the board and saw that the issues on there we not made up but were real issues of everyone in the room.

At the alter I told them, they could leave there trials here. I could tell they really wanted to be real with God as the cried out to Him.

I felt led to ask if anyone want to be filled with the Holy Ghost. 10 came up we began to pray for them, and by the end of the night all 10 had received the Baptism!

God is doing amazing things in our youth group, and in our church. Im so excited for what GOD is got in store for the future.

Tuesday, October 14, 2008


We are having revival this week and so far it has been amazing. God has really done a work in me. He has re-lit something on the inside of me. I have also gotten close again to a dear friend who I really haven't talk to since summer. Im really God allow us to "work" everything out. She's an wonderful person!

This weekend is Fusion Fall Retreat. Im really excited for what God is going to do. Our theme this year is "Getting Desperate for God" My students are hungry for Christ, and Getting Desperate is the key to being full in Christ.

Please be in prayer for us this weekend, as the Lord moves in the lives of our students!



Thursday, October 9, 2008

Out of town

Hey all,

I'm in Champaign now for the ILL Church of God Ministers meeting. Worship Service was good tonight. The new AB preached. Jared Sung, and rocked it out! Been a good day. I hate the drive from Bourbonnais to Champaign. So dull. Lord knows I have driven back and forth on I-57 a lot this summer. LONG AND BOARING.

Tomorrow I sit in a meeting all day that starts at 9am....Lord help me....ha

Really excited for revivel next week!! Should be a good time. Im know God is going to do great things not only in me but the church as well!!

Well its after 1am time for bed.



Tuesday, October 7, 2008

New Season, brings change!

It's FALL!!!!! I love this time of year!!!

Well it's been over a week since I have posted, and oh boy has a lot happened since then.

When I last wrote things were not so hot in the ministry. How ever God has turned around this youth group in such a amazing way! I am really excited for our fall retreat! I believe God is going to do great things in the lives of our students!

On another note the Cubbies lost again in the first round. I just don't understand it. Best team in the National League and they still can't win a game. GRRR Oh well there alway next year...ha

Have a ministers meeting this Thursday and Friday. My first one! Kinda exciting but also going to be boring. Then we hav revival all next week! Im excited for what God is going in our church!

Well Im out like the Cubs in the playoffs!!!



Sunday, September 28, 2008

It's Time for Change

Well, I guess I'll start this by saying, I'm crushed, let down, dishearten.....

I have a youth group that runs about 30 students. We on average have 15-20. I was really excited about youth service tonight, ended up have 9 people, but there were only 3 students, and the rest were leaders. I called some of them and there excuses were "I'm shopping, or too tired." so now the wheels are turning in my head, and I'm thinking to myself, Is it something I'm doing? Am I the problem? Are they tired of hearing me? The thing is I don't know what to do? I don't have the answers.... It's time for a change, I need a change, want a change, have to have a change.

But how? What do I do?

Lord it's in your hands. Change me, and make me more like you!

Make me desperate for you Lord!



Saturday, September 27, 2008


It's the weekend!!!

Been a light week for me, which is good I needed it! Have not been up before 11 pretty much all week! Weather is nice, and I really can't complain about life. I think I got closer this week on some things! Im just being still and listening to the voice of God!

MLB playoffs start Wednesday!



Thursday, September 25, 2008

"Whatever You're Doing (Something Heavenly)

It's time for healing time to move on
It's time to fix what's been broken too long
Time make right what has been wrong
It's time to find my way to where I belong
There's a wave that's crashing over me
All I can do is surrender

Whatever you're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos somehow there's peace
It's hard to surrender to what I can't see
but I'm giving in to something heavenly

Time for a milestone
Time to begin again
Revaluate who I really am
Am I doing everything to follow your will
or just climbing aimlessly over these hills
So show me what it is you want from me
I give everything I surrender...

Time to face up
Clean this old house
Time to breathe in and let everything out
That I've wanted to say for so many years
Time to to release all my held back tears

Whatever you're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but I believe
You're up to something bigger than me
Larger than life something heavenly

Whatever you're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but now I can see
This something bigger than me
Larger than life something heavenly
Something heavenly

It's time to face up
Clean this old house
Time breathe in and let everything out



Tuesday, September 23, 2008


Well, I have felt weird lately. I have felt like I have been Numb to the touch of God. I haven't really felt his presents in my life in a while it seems. I just want to hear His voice. I know he's there, I know He has not left me, I haven't backslid or anything like that...I just haven't "felt" Him.

At prayer tonight....I just lied in the floor and did not say anything, I did not know what to say. I mean it was prayer, why couldn't I just start praying....It's just weird...Is God trying to show me something, or am I just running around so much being "busy" that I have put a wall up between me and God? I know i need to spend more time with Him, and read my Bible more, but I just can't get myself to do it. Why...Im a pastor, it should be easy right? I just want to walk hand and hand with my Lord. I want so much of Him in my life. I guess I will just keep asking Him to soften my heart, break me and mold me into the man He wants me to be.

Week has been kinda crappy...been sick
But this to shall pass.



Monday, September 22, 2008

God is Good!

What a day yesterday was! I woke up sick as a dog, and missed morning worship. Kinda mad about missing, have not missed morning worship in about 4 years. And of course there was a great move of God as well. I was told in the middle of pastors sermon he felt led to ask who wanted to be baptized, and 25 people raised there hand. So we held a special service at 6pm for water baptism. There ended up being 41 get baptized by the end of the night. Some who didn't even plan on it, myself included.

I was feeling a little better so I decided to go and watch fellow friends and family get baptized. By the time it was over I felt I should get re-baptized since I was younger when I first did it, and don't really remember it. Then my mother, father and sister wanted to be re-baptized. Pastor baptized my mother, and let me baptized my father and sister. It was a really special moment for me, and one that I will never forget!

The day ended up being a great day, and I felt like God just filled up my cup and it has begun to overflow.



Saturday, September 20, 2008

Go Cubs

Cubs Win the 2008 National League Central Division!!!

Sort tonight, not feeling good. : (

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Nice weather and a heavy heart

Hello blog world.

It is finally nice outside! And by nice I mean it quit raining, the sun is out and is a cool 70 out!!  I love this time of year!  I would have to say that it is my favorite time of the year.  Fall is bonfires, hoodies, college football, fall classic (MLB Playoffs), cooler weather and of course means Christmas is right around the corner!!!  BTW there are only 98 shopping days till Christmas. 

My heart the past week has been heavy.  Im not sure why?  I have prayed and asked God to speak to me.  Asked why I have a heavy heart, but I'm still waiting for Him answer.  I guess I'm acting different too.  My uncle asked me monday night what was wrong with me?  I questioned him, b/c I did not know what he was referring too.  He said, "you just seem different the past few weeks, your not the same Scott."   It got me to start thinking about some of the things that I was doing that made me "seem different."  I looked back to a year ago, and a lot has changed in my life over the last 12 months.  One year ago this past Sunday, I found out my best friends were moving back to Ohio.  This met that they were going to be leaving the church as well and they were the youth pastors.  That day was of of the hardest days for me.  It was bittersweet.  Sad b/c my best friend was moving, but excited b/c I knew a door of opportunity awaited.  I had just finished my CAMS classes, and had just gotten my Exhorter's License.  I knew my calling was to be a youth pastor and I knew my time was here!  I was changed.  Few other things happened, became single after 3 years, again changed me.   

But if people are noticing something different in me that's not good, why can't I see it?  Is it linked to my heavy heart?  It God trying to say something to me?  Is He trying to speak to me?  I don't here Him.  Am I so "busy" with school and my ministry, friend and family, that  I have somehow missed the voice of God?  

Lord I pray to here your voice!  Make your self so real to me!  I love you more than I have ever!  May your will be done in my life. Amen.

It's Wednesday!!!  Week is half over!



Monday, September 15, 2008

Ghost of a good thing

Today has been a day.  Had a lunch meeting today with Pastor and Jared.  Then hung out with CJ for a bit!  Love that guy. 

Had a lot on my mind today, and I can't figure out why?  This summer has been up and down.  I broke off an engagement with a girl I had been with for three years.  Youth group has grown and is still growing.  Few other things happened as well.

I thought I had gotten over this, but for some reason today while driving in my truck, all of the feelings and thought's came rushing back, and I started to weep.  I have come to a conclusion that the way I feel will be there no matter what I do.  You can't help the way you feel, or can you?  I have done all I can, tried and tried, and even went out of my way.  I just wish I could move on.  But maybe there's a reason why?

Well need to finish some home work.  Have a good night all who read this.



Sunday, September 14, 2008

Through the fire

Wow... what and awesome service today!  Pastor preached about being in the fire.  How it's not always the enemy who is putting the fire on us but how sometimes God puts us in the fire to purify us and make us more like him.  He never said that the fire would be easy, but just like Shadrack, Meshack, and Abenago they were in the fire, but there Lord was in it with them. 

Im 23 have raised in church all my life.  But the older I get It seem the less I understand about my Lord. But my love for Him is stronger than it has ever been.  I find myself at a loss for words lately when it comes to describing my Lord and Savior.  It's because words really can't describe Him.  He's to great for words to compare.

Today's been a good day so far! With family now for Tenn. Love seeing family and friends!

Youth service was really good tonight.  I preached about about protection.  How God is there to protect us even when we are going through hell on Earth.  And when it seem like He's going, it's really when He's there for you the most!  He will never leave us or forsake us!

Have a great week!



Saturday, September 13, 2008

Let's give it a try

Well, Im going to try to keep this up to date, I know I have a facebook and a myspace, but this is going to be more personal than the others.  Hopefully you enjoy this and keep up to date with my busy life!